can we all let our guard down for a minute? be a little raw, a little vulnerable together?? for years i’ve thought that i had to keep up the facade, this front that i have it all together, that i was 100% of the time rocking this thing called life and momhood, perfectly and smoothly, creatively, pinteresty, while doing all the things, for all the people, always happily and easily, never needing any help. but can we set that mask aside for a minute?? please?
guess what friends? sometimes i yell. sometimes i cuss. sometimes i laugh uncontrollably. sometimes i sing a little too enthusiastically along with the radio. somedays i am as calm as a cucumber and can handle anything thrown my way. somedays i am so exhausted that i shed a few tears in my bathroom wondering how i am going to clean up the next mess, break up the next argument. somedays i eat clean and workout. somedays i just don’t have the energy and drink too much coffee. somedays my kids are the sweetest and best of friends and their imaginations run wild, creating a day full of play and exploration. somedays its like a wwe match. somedays we laugh and cry and yell and giggle all within an hour. somedays it just brings me to my knees and all i can do is cry out in prayer, to my god, for peace, for strength, for comfort that i’m not alone in this.
am i alone in this? i don’t think i am. i think we’re all just a little tired and crazy and feeling like a hot mess! some may just hide it better than others right?? i don’t try to hide it anymore, i don’t want too. i have found peace in putting that facade down, to connect with another heart who in that moment, needs that vulnerability and rawness, to not feel so alone.
i joke that the world is on steroids these days- intense sports starting earlier and earlier. kids have to be the best of the best in school, extracurricular activities, and anything that they maybe kinda sorta want to do. when did it get this way?? can we slow it down? can we take a deep breath collectively and let kids be kids- run, play, explore, and be kids. can we let moms be moms and not judge but support, cheer each other on, be an honest listening ear, and maybe that friend who shows up with chocolate and a hug and says i get it. so next time we’re in target, or costco, or at the park and we see that tired mom, just trying to hold it together while her kids meltdown- lets give her a high five or a hug and say you’ve got this mom. i feel you. you’re not alone.
i think there is beauty in slowing down, in getting our toes in dirt, in taking a deep breath and just being. being in the moment, not trying to do all the things, not creating that mask that we have it all together. but in being vulnerable and connecting, praying to see god’s hand around us and where he wants us, what he wants us to be doing. he knows our struggles, our heartaches, our insecurities, our joys, our hearts. and he is there, holding us up, waiting for us to put that facade down and turn to him, to find our peace in him.
